Wednesday, August 31, 2011
Monday, August 29, 2011
Beyonce said in the following interview ,
"I feel like a woman. I feel like I'm very aware of who I am. I feel great and I feel like 30 is the ideal age [to start a family], because you're mature enough to know who you are and to have your boundaries and your standards, and not be afraid, too polite -- but you're young enough to be a young woman," she said. "I'm so looking forward to it."
I like her thinking. First off, I am not saying there is anything wrong with having kids before you are 30 or after you are 30. For me, I wanted to have at least one child before I was 30, I guess deep down I knew I would need that time to personal get ready. I am meeting my mark. I am 28 and will be 29 when our son is born.
Here is some of my story.
I was the youngest growing up so I didn't have a lot of exposure to babies and youngsters until I was older and was a nanny and then had nieces and nephews of my own. Honestly kids scared me!! When we first got married I knew I wanted to wait so I could get to know ME for a while and be married. I knew the kid thing would happen but I needed ME time and was a little scared and selfish all rolled together. Sounds like I was a bad Mormon or something, WRONG! God gave us choices and this was my/our choice. For the first few years we got a lot of grief and I think apart of that was because we lived in Utah and the culture there is so stiff when it comes to these kinds of things. One day a friend asked us if we were getting a divorce because we didn't have kids yet? WHAT the @#$@! (He was demoted on the friend list btw) People's happiness should never be measured by the amount of kids they have. Some people don't know other's circumstances. My Aunt gave us the best advice after we were married. She said, "Having kids is deep water, don't jump in unless you know how to swim." Not to be preachy, my blog deal with it, but she is right. It is a big commitment emotionally, spiritually, physically, and financially. Yeah ya gotta have faith, but faith without works is dead and I preferred to have strong preparation for that step in my life. I needed to take my time with this decision and become more confident in my ability to mother as well as myself. I had fun too, I got a college degree, worked in the corporate environment for 5+ years, and got a great career started that I know I have options with should I chose to continue down that road.
For years I emotionally and spiritually was on a motherhood quest, but the health quest wasn't quite there until after this moment. Because of my invincibility I was a reckless dare devil. In my lifetime I have been in countless biking, tumbling accidents, and was even thrown out of a moving car, another blog post another time. I walked away from all of it without a scratch. It wasn't until I had my roller blading accident at the age of 26. I broke my broke my fingers and suddenly woke up a little and decided that maybe I should start being more cautious about my health and take care of it if I want to carry something in it. I also remember having an experience many many moons later with some friends. They are a wild and crazy bunch and often times they invite us to join them on their adventures. Lars and I went on this particular adventure that lasted into the wee hours in the night and it was a fun time. But it didn't have the edge it used too. SO after that moment I realized that we are growing out of that phase in our lives and ready for the next phase. Which logically meant a family. After more financial prep and prayer and blah blah blah we were for the most part getting on our way.
We knew waiting was a risk but we took that risk with a "come what may" attitude. I always knew that when we decided to start a family it would be perfect and things would just fall into place and it will be perfectly beautiful for us and our timing. Let me tell you, it has been. :) Preparing for this the last few years have been wonderful for us. Just wonderful and it keeps getting better and better. A long while ago when Lars and I were folding laundry together out of no where he says to me, "ya know, I love you so much we need to have kids." awe :) I am sure we could have had kids sooner or maybe even later. But now is awesome and well I really cannot imagine it being any other way for us. There are just so many little things that have happened that confirmed that this is the right time for us. It does have its tough moments, but the good absolutely out ways the bad and this whole process just strengthens my testimony about being a child of God and eternal families.
So Beyonce you spoke what I was feeling. Yes, I do feel like a woman. I love my body and I am also aware of who I am. I feel amazing and I also so look forward to this process and the new adventure that lies before me.
Friday, August 26, 2011
I have a check list app on my phone because I love check lists. One of my check list is titled, "Things to Blog About". Seriously, through out my day I think of fun or silly things that would rock on this blog. I have a lot of weird thoughts and I plan on sharing them. Some are baby related and some are just about me and my life in general. One thing I have been wanting to blog about for months now has been my personal history. And a little bit about Lars too. I want to recount my entire life from start to present. Not just so you can have a good read but because this is like a journal for me and someday I will print it and put it in a nice book and hope that my kids will enjoy reading this in addition to all my journal books that I have kept since forever.
So be prepared for as long as this blogging mood is hitting me THERE WILL BE BLOGSSSS
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
Monday, August 22, 2011
Lars is really good and doing Gonzo's voice too. Maybe we consider decorating the nursery with the Muppets, particularly Gonzo. Gonzo rocks because he is weird but has a huge imagination and is friends with chickens. The coolest thing about kids is their imagination. Something I hope to encourage our kids to grow.
SO the last few weeks a lot of people have been asking me what we are having and recently the answer I have given them has been, "oh maybe a dragon, or a unicorn, but I guess a baby boy or girl could do."
Wednesday, August 17, 2011
I know it isn't Friday yet, but everyone should watch this video. It is hilarious and has a very 90's feel to it. It also has a ton of special guest stars, many of whom were most famous during the 90's. I won't tell you who they are, you will just have to watch it all the way to the end to find out. Plus this song is really fun and catchy and I cannot help but play the air saxophone anytime I hear it.
Enjoy and Happy Humb Day!
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
Archery is the art, practice, or skill of propelling arrows with the use of a bow, from "arcus" (Latin). In archery there are three components, the target, the bow, and the arrow. On one end of the arrow there are three feathers, two of the feathers are the same color, these are called the Hens. The third feather is called the Rooster and it is a different color from the Hens. This is important because when you place the arrow on the bow and get ready to aim you must place the Rooster in a outward direction. Otherwise the Rooster feather will collide with the bow and throw your arrow off your target.
This can be likened until Life. Living with Christ again or eternal life is our target. When we do what is right, keep the commandments, are kind to others, etc. then we are keeping our Rooster feather in the right direction so our efforts will be aimed at our target and when we shoot the arrow we will hit the target. When we don't do those things then the Rooster is facing the wrong way and even if we think we are aimed at the target just right the arrow will dance away from the target because the Rooster feather collides with the bow.
Many of the girls had trouble pulling their arrows all the way back on their bows. Most of the time they were really hard to pull back, but would usually ease up when they reached the back. The bows were each unique and different depending on bow strength. They had some easy and really hard bows to use depending on their size and height. No matter what bow the girls chose almost all of them needed help pulling their arrow back into place before shooting it at the target. The camp sites teachers were a big help to girls in this regard. Many of them stood behind them and assisted with pulling the bows back while others kept the arrows on the bow while the girls pulled back.
This is likened unto life and the trials each of us face. We all try to stay on course and keep our arrow on target, but when it comes time to shoot the arrow we cannot do it alone. True, we can get help along the way from our parents, leaders, friends, and Bishopric. But the one person who is and will always be there to help is our Savior, Jesus Christ, through the atonement. He knows exactly what trials we are going through and if we turn to him and utilize the atonement in our own lives then he will be there to help us pull our arrows back and shoot to meet our aimed target. He loves us and will always be there, we just have to let him in.
I know that if we do our best to keep our Rooster in the right direction and rely heavily on the Lord for strength through trials then we can meet our target. He does so in my life countless times. I am very grateful for the atonement and the knowledge that I will live with him again and that families are forever. Amen.
Monday, August 15, 2011
Friday, August 12, 2011
Thursday, August 11, 2011
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
So I am working on getting a list of baby things to get before our little bundle comes. I am sure we don't need to have everything right away and can get some things afterwards. I am a list person and I have been feeling anxious about making some progress in this area so a list will help put my mind at ease.
Since this is my first I thought I would open the floor to your thoughts. If you know of any items that you found useful and can't live without or items that were a waste of time and money please do share.....